[P&M]

I did something that I’m very proud of today. I was making a cake (from a box) and frosting (from scratch) and I didn’t eat the excess batter or frosting. This may not seem like a big deal to any of you — especially you skinny people — but it is a huge deal for me. My down-fall is sweets. I can eat sweets all day, every day (and there have been times that I did just that), but now that I’ve had Asher I want to get the baby weight off… not to mention all of the other excess weight that I’ve accumulated over the years. So today I was tested. I could just lick the spatula and lick the batter off. No one would have known. But I stopped myself. I threw the dirty dishes in the sink and covered them with warm water, thereby making the excess batter inedible. I had to do the same thing when I made the frosting…. all the more so with the frosting, actually. I remember one of the last few weeks that was pregnant I had such a huge craving for orange juice and chocolate frosting that after my OB appointment I stopped off at whatever store was around and picked up that and ate it for dinner.. It was delicious. I’m salivating just thinking about it. As hungry as I am now — besides for really wanting cake batter and frosting right now, I’ve been craving s’mores all week! [no, I’m not pregnant.] — I’m really proud of myself and I refuse to give into temptation. I could very easily go downstairs and whip up some more frosting, but I won’t do it. I’m committed to this diet and to an on-going healthy lifestyle. I will not fall off the wagon!

‘Don’t Stop Believin” by Journey